I had an amazing day today, even though I was really tired from walking. walking to and from the doctors and then walking to the doctors with Jay and then walking Murray, but it's a good exercise. My sweetie made really good lasagna for me too, I thought it was pretty good, but he didn't like the sauce that I picked so next time he has to pick then. While we were walking Murray I saw this really cute fluffy dog that I liked but the owner was so creepy, creepy people shouldn't get to have cute dogs lol.. that sound kind of mean but creepy people shouldn't do a lot of stuff yet they still do.
Yesterday I was honestly really sad but he made my day so much better just talking to me and trying everything he can to make me feel better. After I talked to him on the phone for awhile, I felt so much better and the flowers really made me smile even when I was crying like crazy. I was crying for a good 2 hours and he made me better just by sending me flowers..
The flowers came with a very cute and sweet message saying:

"Babe, I love you more than anything on this planet. you make me feel like I could never do anything to jeopardize what we have, and I promise that I'll always try my best. Ne Fampe" ne fampe is his favorite word now lol he writes it everything once I've told him what it means. but its funny

This message made me cry even though I was crying already, but after I read it my tears were happy tears for awhile then it went back to sad lol...but it was really sweet of him to write something like this. He is slowly opening up now which is great, seems like the journal is helping too which is good =)

I just love this message

Runs with Robots (12:54:47 PM):	i do need you tiffany
Runs with Robots (12:54:54 PM):	i need you to be by my side for the rest of my life
Runs with Robots (12:55:03 PM):	without you i cant really see a point for being alive anymore
Runs with Robots (12:55:11 PM):	ur the only reason i'm even still in school
Runs with Robots (12:55:38 PM):	if it werent for you i'd be in afghanistan right now probably killing or being killed
Runs with Robots (12:55:49 PM):	you came into my life and gave me something to really work for
Runs with Robots (12:56:03 PM):	now all i thinka bout is getting a good job so i can buy us a home and start a family with you
Runs with Robots (12:56:24 PM):	no longer is my priority just causing pain and sufforing to people's familes by killing their people overseas
Runs with Robots (12:56:43 PM):	and if i lose you i know ill slip right back into that, hating everyone and everything
Runs with Robots (12:57:07 PM):	my parents will tell you, before i met you every other word out of my mouth was fuck this or i hate that or i hate them i want them to die
Runs with Robots (12:57:10 PM):	to just about anyone
Runs with Robots (12:57:30 PM):	and now that i have you i actually care about somone and its effecting me in more then just that way
Runs with Robots (12:57:54 PM):	i feel like you filled that missing part of my heart that was torn appart when i was a kid
Runs with Robots (12:58:18 PM):	without you im just an empty body that was filled with a mix of anger and self hatred
Runs with Robots (12:58:35 PM):	and that would just manifest in hurting others
Runs with Robots (12:59:02 PM):	i love you more then you could ever even hope to understand, but i just hope that i can make you feel a fraction of it

Love you forever and forever

I've been having a wonderful week with Jay since I've got off he birth control pills. I'm not as moody yet I'm still very sensitive when it comes to him which is normal since being sensitive has always been one of my personalities. We've been having a good time a lot and a lot of fun time too which is amazing. Since our 1 year anniversary is getting closer, it just brings back memories of how I met him and what my first impression of him. Till this day that first impression never changed except I got to know him a little more. When I first saw him I knew I had a crush on him since he was really really cute, physical attraction is always the first thing but then his personality and his love for me made him a keeper. =D

I just love hanging around with him, even when we don't do anything that's fine with me too just as long as he willing to hug me and cuddle with me. He will never get a complain from me then lol.

Now I have to think what I should get him for Christmas and our one year anniversary. I remember him mentioning that he will be broke in February because there's so many things that is happening.
1. It's our one year anni on Feb 7
2. It's my birthday Feb 9
3. It's Valentine's day---now that I have a boyfriend I do care about vday (before I didn't because there was no point lol)

LOVE YOU MOST sweetie

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Today when I took the T today, stupid people got me really upset because when the T was at Hynes Convention a blind person with a service dog got on the T and no one near the door got up and gave the guy a seat. I was sitting down, but it wasn't closest to the door and since no one got up, I got up and told him he can sit in my seat and he said Thank You. It's sad that no one seems to do that nowadays, no one gets up and offer there seats for elderly, handicapped, and children. The guy got off at the same stop as me and the T driver almost closed the door right on him, luckily another guy and I caught the door on time or else the stupid door would of hurt the dog and the guy.
People are just dumb that's it period.!!!!
I feel like people don't know how to respect others now, I don't get how can people not get up at all or pretend that they don't see anything. I was exhausted from work and I got up and I was wearing high heels and doing stock for a long time. I'm not trying to make myself look good or anything but it's just sad that no one is willing to do it now. I just think if people aren't willing to give up their seat to handicapped people, elderly, and children they shouldn't ride the T.

As my sweetie is playing his new game now, I decided to send him an email and blog. I sent the email already and now it's time to blog.
I decided to give Jay a surprise when he got out of work, so around the time he usually get out of work I drove all the way to his house and waited outside. But while I was waiting for him and walk around the corner, I was looking up into the beautiful sky and I saw so many pretty stars. It only made me think of one thing on a cold night, and it was to be in Jay's arm and sit down together and look at the beautiful stars while he hugs me.
As soon as I finish thinking about that I turned around and Jay was there, with his black hoodie on so that his ears won't get too cold. All I saw was his facial expression change when I turned around from a grouchy and mad Jay to a smiley Jay. I saw a huge smile on him and he gave me a hug and asked if I was cold and of course I was cold since I was waiting for him outside.
When we got inside, we went into his room and all he did was hug me and I know it makes him feel better. So whatever makes him feel better I am willing to do and I love hugs and he thinks I give really good hugs.
But he played his new game for a little bit while I was there, it's cute when he plays his new game he looks like a little kid with a new toy. He has a look on him and he looks really really cute. Oh yea and Jay kept on saying Thank You, the silly sweetie. He has prove that he appreciates everything I do, and I know he cares and loves me, he has to keep the good work up and not be a lazy boyfriend. He wasn't that lazy before but he was lazy lol. But at least I know he isn't just saying Thank You to be polite, I know he really means it.

I've been thinking today a lot today and I have to say it's all good things. I was thinking Jay and I pretty much fell in love the very second we saw each other. I honestly thought that this will never happen to me and it only happen in movies. But I guess I was wrong, as long as I keep on dreaming my wish will come true and it did. My goal in life has always been to find the love of my life and I found him. I found him in January and now we're dating, and I know we will get marry one day and start our own family. I just have to make sure he will stay with me till the very end, so he has to be very healthy.
Love has always mean a lot to me and it will be for the rest of my life till I died at least. People have always said I can die for love and I know I will just for love lol.
I know love at first sight does happen, because it happened to me and my love. He thought I was cute and I thought he was cute, sexy and very handsome. I LOVE JAY way too much, and I know he feels the same about me :)