I've been having a wonderful week with Jay since I've got off he birth control pills. I'm not as moody yet I'm still very sensitive when it comes to him which is normal since being sensitive has always been one of my personalities. We've been having a good time a lot and a lot of fun time too which is amazing. Since our 1 year anniversary is getting closer, it just brings back memories of how I met him and what my first impression of him. Till this day that first impression never changed except I got to know him a little more. When I first saw him I knew I had a crush on him since he was really really cute, physical attraction is always the first thing but then his personality and his love for me made him a keeper. =D

I just love hanging around with him, even when we don't do anything that's fine with me too just as long as he willing to hug me and cuddle with me. He will never get a complain from me then lol.

Now I have to think what I should get him for Christmas and our one year anniversary. I remember him mentioning that he will be broke in February because there's so many things that is happening.
1. It's our one year anni on Feb 7
2. It's my birthday Feb 9
3. It's Valentine's day---now that I have a boyfriend I do care about vday (before I didn't because there was no point lol)

LOVE YOU MOST sweetie

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Today when I took the T today, stupid people got me really upset because when the T was at Hynes Convention a blind person with a service dog got on the T and no one near the door got up and gave the guy a seat. I was sitting down, but it wasn't closest to the door and since no one got up, I got up and told him he can sit in my seat and he said Thank You. It's sad that no one seems to do that nowadays, no one gets up and offer there seats for elderly, handicapped, and children. The guy got off at the same stop as me and the T driver almost closed the door right on him, luckily another guy and I caught the door on time or else the stupid door would of hurt the dog and the guy.
People are just dumb that's it period.!!!!
I feel like people don't know how to respect others now, I don't get how can people not get up at all or pretend that they don't see anything. I was exhausted from work and I got up and I was wearing high heels and doing stock for a long time. I'm not trying to make myself look good or anything but it's just sad that no one is willing to do it now. I just think if people aren't willing to give up their seat to handicapped people, elderly, and children they shouldn't ride the T.

As my sweetie is playing his new game now, I decided to send him an email and blog. I sent the email already and now it's time to blog.
I decided to give Jay a surprise when he got out of work, so around the time he usually get out of work I drove all the way to his house and waited outside. But while I was waiting for him and walk around the corner, I was looking up into the beautiful sky and I saw so many pretty stars. It only made me think of one thing on a cold night, and it was to be in Jay's arm and sit down together and look at the beautiful stars while he hugs me.
As soon as I finish thinking about that I turned around and Jay was there, with his black hoodie on so that his ears won't get too cold. All I saw was his facial expression change when I turned around from a grouchy and mad Jay to a smiley Jay. I saw a huge smile on him and he gave me a hug and asked if I was cold and of course I was cold since I was waiting for him outside.
When we got inside, we went into his room and all he did was hug me and I know it makes him feel better. So whatever makes him feel better I am willing to do and I love hugs and he thinks I give really good hugs.
But he played his new game for a little bit while I was there, it's cute when he plays his new game he looks like a little kid with a new toy. He has a look on him and he looks really really cute. Oh yea and Jay kept on saying Thank You, the silly sweetie. He has prove that he appreciates everything I do, and I know he cares and loves me, he has to keep the good work up and not be a lazy boyfriend. He wasn't that lazy before but he was lazy lol. But at least I know he isn't just saying Thank You to be polite, I know he really means it.

I've been thinking today a lot today and I have to say it's all good things. I was thinking Jay and I pretty much fell in love the very second we saw each other. I honestly thought that this will never happen to me and it only happen in movies. But I guess I was wrong, as long as I keep on dreaming my wish will come true and it did. My goal in life has always been to find the love of my life and I found him. I found him in January and now we're dating, and I know we will get marry one day and start our own family. I just have to make sure he will stay with me till the very end, so he has to be very healthy.
Love has always mean a lot to me and it will be for the rest of my life till I died at least. People have always said I can die for love and I know I will just for love lol.
I know love at first sight does happen, because it happened to me and my love. He thought I was cute and I thought he was cute, sexy and very handsome. I LOVE JAY way too much, and I know he feels the same about me :)

After the horrible incident, I am finally starting to feel better from those awful side effects of the pills. I'm slowly starting to feel better, I'm still moody but it's not that bad now. All I want is the bleeding to go away and that seems to be gone now which is excellent. =)
I talked to Julien online today, and it's sad to know that Julien might actually have to take a break for his graduate studies. He might have to stop his spring semester and go back to France for his mom, and then come back during the summer to take summer classes.
But sometimes things happen and we just have to do things that we don't want to and that's probably the best. If he really does that I'll miss him for sure, since I won't have him to talk to all the time. If things don't turn out the way Jane plans for January, she will have to go back to Korea. If it doesn't work, having two best friends gone at once is quite hard. I know I'll survive but it be really difficult at least Julien would come back but who knows about Jane if her mom doesn't pass the test.
I'll still have Jay to talk to about stuff and Cynthia will always be hear to listen if Jay is too busy with stuff or if he doesn't feel like listening to me.

But I have to say Jay and I have been doing really good even though I have been crying a lot lately. We are still going strong and very well. In a relationship, people say that the 8 month mark and 3 year mark is always a test for all couples, like problems come up and questions starts to come up. But I have no question about this relationship, like I have no doubts about it I don't feel like this is a waste of time. I know most girls feel that if a relationship isn't going anywhere there is no point of dating then. I know Jay and I will last for a life time, so I'm not worry about that.

I honestly do have the most amazing boyfriend, at least his communication skills is better than some guys. He is able to prove to me that he loves and cares about me, and he has been improving. Really can't complain about this boyfriend, he is a good boyfriend, sometimes the things he tells me about Nick. If Nick was my boyfriend, and he was acting the way he was with me he will be way gone. Jay loves to play games too, but like he always says I'm always his number one priority so if I really needed to talk he will give up game for now and talk to me. It's good to know that he will do that, but I know I might not do that unless I really really need to talk to him.

Love You Sweetie, you have my notebook now... hopefully most of the stuff is positive